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Day One: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now.
Day Two: Nine things about yourself.
Day Three: Eight ways to win your heart.

Day Four: Seven things that cross your mind alot
Day Five: Six things you wish you’d never done.
Day Six: Five people who mean a lot

Day Seven: Four turn offs.
Day Eight: Three turn ons.
Day Nine: Two smileys that describe your life right now.
Day Ten: One confession

There's not too many things I wish I shouldn't have done...I guess I've kind of made peace with all my stupid decisions
1) I wish I would have never involved myself with you...I wish I would've grown a backbone and not been so concerned with hurting your feelings because I didn't actually WANT to be with you  in the end you didn't spare mine and I had wasted 2 years of my life trying to be the "good guy"
2) Along those same lines I wish I never would have quit my job to move to Colorado with you...I've spent the last 2 years attempting to get back to that point...its yet to happen
3) I wish I never jumped right into the work force after high school and told myself college could wait here it is 7 years later and I still haven't started
4) I wish I wouldn't have rebounded with you...in the end it was fun and games then someone got hurt and now we dont even talk/want anything to do with one another
5) I wish I'd have not ditched high school so much, I was a smart kid and instead of exceeding my potential I occasionally barely met it when I felt like showing up
6) I wish I wouldn't have been another name on your list...now things seem weird and overly complicated and I cant do right and THAT bums me out

5 people
 Veronica, Micah, Keith, Alyssa,Cherise, and Tylar

I'm like a day behind...oh well

Day One: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now.
Day Two: Nine things about yourself.
Day Three: Eight ways to win your heart.

Day Four: Seven things that cross your mind a lot.
Day Five: Six things you wish you’d never done.
Day Six: Five people who mean a lot
Day Seven: Four turn offs.
Day Eight: Three turn ons.
Day Nine: Two smileys that describe your life right now.
Day Ten: One confession

1) Do my friends actually like me...or am I as big an utter disappointment to them as everyone else around me.
2) Wtf did I get out of bed again?!?!?!
3) I Miss my dog
4) I shouldn't have done that...but oh well its too late now
5) Am I an alcoholic....nah
6) What DID I look like without tattoos
7) My grandparents

day two and three cos I'm a slacker

Day One: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now.
Day Two: Nine things about yourself.
Day Three: Eight ways to win your heart.

Day Four: Seven things that cross your mind a lot.
Day Five: Six things you wish you’d never done.
Day Six: Five people who mean a lot
Day Seven: Four turn offs.
Day Eight: Three turn ons.
Day Nine: Two smileys that describe your life right now.
Day Ten: One confession

Day Two:
1) My favorite color is neon orange...we're talking obnoxious reflector orange
2) I'm still quite leery of the dark
3) I'm good at writing and coming up with things for other people to say but when it comes to voicing my own mind I lock it up
4) Anger and Jealousy are the two emotions I feel the quickest and easiest...they're also the strongest
5) I have some decent self esteem issues...but I mask it by telling everyone "I love myself"
6) I don't like to cook for just myself but if there's a crowd of people I'll attempt to throw down in the kitchen
7) I'm all about the hit and quit because I dont want to put myself out there and actually get to know someone who will eventually let me down
8) I dont really like the holidays...Nothing traumatic but ever since my grandparents died the holidays haven't really meant the same
9) I miss my best friends family more than my own

Day Three:
1) Be honest with me
2) Even if you dont like my tattoos dont talk down about them... this was my life decision not yours and understandably you may not like it but nothing hurts worse than someone who wont let you do something you love/want
3) Send me random notes/texts
4) Don't be a total puss...sensitivity can be cute but if you cant handle my abrasive smart ass side I'll honestly just not be interested
5) Dont be pushy...I'm not the most trusting when it comes to "winning my heart" I've got fucking issues and when a guy gets a little to into "im gonna conquer the fort mode" it makes me get standoffish and walk away
6) This is shallow but tell me I'm pretty...I like to hear it I work on looking good the majority of the time its nice when that work is acknowledged
7) Like my dog...he's important even if he's not living w/ me at this moment
8) Be understanding when I tell you my niece and nephew come first....If were hanging out and they need something chances are I will do my best to get whatever they need

10 days meme

It looks interesting so I figured hey why not give it a try

Day One: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now.

Day Two: Nine things about yourself.
Day Three: Eight ways to win your heart.
Day Four: Seven things that cross your mind a lot.
Day Five: Six things you wish you’d never done.
Day Six: Five people who mean a lot
Day Seven: Four turn offs.
Day Eight: Three turn ons.
Day Nine: Two smileys that describe your life right now.
Day Ten: One confession

1. I'm sorry I'm a royal fuck up and every time I seem to gain any ground with you I go and screw it all up again like the idiot that I am  I dont know what my problem is or why I have all these issues all of a sudden but shit do I wish I could become a better person and stop disappointing you because THATS what it seems like I'm doing and I really wish this was all in my head.
2. I'm not interested in having a relationship...one or two dates is fine but I dont do relationships
3.  I'm really bummed out that my idea of getting to actually know you turned into what it usually is
4. I'm honestly bored with you and I would like to stop "seeing" you
5. I'm flattered really but honestly I'm not attracted to you
6. Stop using your kid as an excuse to be a fuck up life's hard for all of us time to rise above and stop sinking and waiting for everyone else w/ the life preservers.
7. I don't know what I want but I do know that if you were ever an option later on I would most deff. change my way of thinking
8. You spoil me yes you're a good friend but still I don't like being treated like shit when I have an opinion and also why do you have to ALWAYS hate on the things I like...I don't make fun of your way to intense love of harry potter and the Beatles and the fact that you collect useless crap
9. Stop using my things and moving my stuff I wish you would just nut up and leave me alone...I was here first even if I moved away for a little while just GO
10. Not everything I own is to share...it wasn't that when we were kids so why does it have to be that way now?
So yeah I've been thinking...and you know I used to do this thing where I would "reformat" every 6 mos or so, just totally reinvent myself to try to find my niche in the world and I've decided fuck that nonsense. I've become quite comfortable in my most recent skin. I like being a hard drinking social butterfly party hard type. I like the fact that sometimes I just want to sit at home and eat peanut butter cups and watch zombie movies and drink a coke. I like my fursona just the way she is a jackalope I'm done reinventing her too. I'm just sick of feeling like I constantly have to change myself to keep up w/ everyones stupid thoughts and oppinons. Also here's something I don't let out all those old personas some of you have been privy to know I FUCKING hate them so much! I struggle with depression I don't know why sometimes I just wake up and I'm sad sometimes I let the uncontrollable factors in life bog me down into a pit of self loathing and pity so I change...which could be the root of my constant revision, but I'm tired of that and I've grown content w/ the latest me so I guess all I'm trying to say is this "Gen" "brandi" whatever you call me is sticking around problems flaws and all...
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UPDATE

So I am alive...I live in huntington beach with my sister i've yet to decide if thats as fun as one would think it is or not im leaning against or not...but lots of drama I dont care to get into.  On the path to finding a job I swear I think I've spent more time unemployed this year than employed I'm such an apparent slacker ass.  I miss my dog had to leave him @ my gmas house but thats only temporary if anyone is in the market for a basset hound just lemme know.  As much as I'd like to give him to someone I could eventually get him back from it's to an understandable degree.  But yeah life's ok I'm not dead...yet and I'm just kind of smooth sailing hoping to survive and get a job soon pray hope wish whatever it is you do that something anything comes through for me asap! Love peace and chicken grease.....also beatles rockband i've seen bits and piece of it and OML <3 I also do have the internet so all you people who missed me on sl or the general internet dont worry I'm back...for how long no one knows but im here

Halloween

So since I wont have my doll costume done by halloween...maybe by fc...thats if i even START it soonish.  I've decided I'm going to be the orange chicken bandits from panda express...now deeming on if I can FIND someone to be the other bandit or not i might just make a panda backpack via a jounral I found on fa or some junks and then go solo...however dont hate on my halloween costume :P you know you love the idea of pandas stealing orange chicken
 

so not really much to say I've been working way less than I should thus the only con im going to this year other than fc last year is going to be comicon...and yes that was just a small complaint about money and here im going to make you go wtf?!?!?!?! bitch stop talking...but im almost done with the full sleeve and I believe we're going on to my leg pieces in the next appointment zombie musicians (jim morrison jimi hendrix etc.) and zombie pinup queens planes and the z virus god I love my artist...I moved my sleeve posts to my fa account I know I know I'll do a journal some other time with all the pictures sam took on here but just figured I would stop and say hi if you want to see them on the fa its www.furaffinity.net/user/genevieve..... also the creepy little tween staring @ me while organizing the magazines and chugging from her like gallon jug bottle of water is creeping me out... and yes i used creep twice in a sentence get over it...time to go feed homeless people yaaaay gma for volunteering me to "get out of the house"

sleevage

update on the sleeve going back in the 30th to finish up my forearm..not as many photos you'll have to get over it and yes they are crappy however I am the first page of his portfolio so suck it bitches

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quick update and happy cinco de mayo


h'ok so i guess i can update real quicklike...sorry i haven't been around much but honestly I've been working @ 5 am got a promotion @ work I'm no longer slinging chicken but running the bread aisle instead.  I'm doing ok honestly I guess I cant do worse I could do better... but life is working itsself out the way it needs to right now y'know.

I work I sleep I go home and its DODGER BASEBALL SEASON!!! I really need to get home so I can get ready for mannywood and cinco de mayo. 

Also I've started work on a full sleeve so here are some photos of the inital piece of work that its going to be built off of...I go back in this monday for an 8 hour session this skull took 6 holy hell am I going to be sore...I'm thinking we're going to pound out as much of it as we can so a session every 2 weeks or so.  I plan on keeping y'all updated on the process  Sorry for shitty photos its hard to get good ones of your forearm... well go in progression the first is before we added the color to the bottom the middle is a shitty after i unwrapped it pic and the third is a couple of days into the healing process
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